Author: 4jlkelly

  • FAITHFUL. Day 18 of Lent. Every New Morning.

    FAITHFUL. Day 18 of Lent. Every New Morning.

    This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness” Lamentations 3:22

    God is faithful Deut 7:9

     

    “Every new morning is a new beginning of our life.  Every day is a completed whole.”  Dietrich Bonhoeffer writes, “God created day and night so that we might not wander boundlessly, but already in the morning may see the goal of the evening before us.  As the old sun rises every day, so the eternal mercies of God are new every morning.  To grasp the old faithfulness of God anew every morning, to be able—in the middle of life—to begin a new life with God daily, that is the gift that God gives with every new morning…”

    Reflecting on the words found in Lamentations 3, Bonhoeffer affirms that “every new day is a gift from a faithful God and that a part of this ongoing gift is God’s love & compassion.”  God loves us. This is something each of us should know and witness in affirmation as we begin a new day, “I am loved by a faithful God.”

    Every sunrise is a song to me. Great is Thy faithfulness.  The dawn is a sign, a memo that reminds us we have another chance “to begin a new life with God” in a new day.  Apparently, in God’s created order new beginnings are called for every single day, not just at the beginning of each New Year.  I am so thankful for new mercies.

    “God is faithful, who is always true to his promises: whatever He has said, He will do it; He will never suffer his faithfulness to fail; and since He has made so many promises concerning the establishment of his people, and their perseverance to grace, they may assure themselves of them.” Gill’s Exposition

     How faithful are you to affirming God’s promises to yourself each day?

    What promises of God do you ‘know’ and claim today?

    The next sunrise will you count it a new beginning of our life and Live Loved?

    Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments. Deut 7:9

  • JOURNEY. Day 17 of Lent. Story of a hero.

    JOURNEY. Day 17 of Lent. Story of a hero.

    hero's journey

    Everyone has a story. And we all love a good movie. If you’ve ever gone with me I can be a bit of a spoiler.  I’ll whisper things like, “Ah, he’s refusing the call” or “Cool gatekeeper” or “creative watering hole”.  I can see the structure in good stories because its universal. So to me the word journey is used to symbolize a story.  In literature, The Hero’s Journey is a pattern of fundamental structures and stages that form a story, let me quickly tell you about it.

    Joseph Campbell summarizes it this way in his book The Hero with a Thousand Faces:     A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow-man.

    Campbell describes 17 stages or steps along the hero’s journey. Very few stories contain all 17 stages, and the steps may be organized in a number of ways, but there are 3 main divisions to any story. Campbell calls them the Departure (sometimes called Separation)- the beginning, Initiation-the middle, and Return- the end. “Departure” deals with the hero’s call or refusal of the call prior to the journey; “Initiation” is the sequence of the hero’s many adventures along the way; and “Return” deals with the hero’s return home with knowledge and powers acquired on the journey.

    The reason a story is so powerful is that we all can relate to the hero’s journey. We all experienced the call at one time or another.  And we can remember refusing some and yet finding ourselves right there, accepting it in the end. Whether it’s taking a new job or starting chemotherapy, every journey has a BEGINNING. The journey of a million miles begins with the first step. You have to start to finish. The hero begins in a mundane situation of normality and receives some information that calls them to step into the new strange world, at the beginning every hero meets a mentor and is given supernatural aid. Story magic isn’t evil or bad, its an element of story that illustrates favor and requires faith. Office supplies or ipad technology given by a tenure secretary who knows the ropes are as supernatural as the magical healing power of Taxol or Herceptin given by a caring chemotherapy nurse. Just think of Glenda giving Dorothy the ruby slippers and our hero is on the way down the yellow brick road. But there is still a moment of resistance when the final choice is made, and sometimes it’s even presented as a door or a gate-with a scary gatekeeper that requires a secret code. The hero must know the combination to open the door and once through it the hero has crossed into the field of adventure, venturing into an unknown and dangerous realm where the rules and limits are not know.

    In the middle of the story the hero is initiated through a road of trials or a series of tests, tasks, and ordeals often occurring in threes that begin the transformation through improvements and setbacks. Often the hero fails one or more of these tests but they have met new friends along the way to help them like the Scarecrow or R2D2 and there is often a gathering place, a ‘watering hole’ like a cantina or coffee shop, and more dragons to slay and barriers to climb, love to find, and temptations to overcome as momentary glimpses of the goal ahead are seen in the approach. The hero and newfound allies prepare for the major challenge in the Special world and the hero enters a central space and confronts death or faces their greatest fear. Here out of the moment of death comes new life and the hero takes possession of the treasure won by facing death. Whether Dorothy gets the witch’s broom or James Bond finds the nuclear codes they have the boon in hand. There is often celebration but there is also danger of losing the treasure again.

    The Return is the road back to complete the adventure, leaving the special world to bring the boon or treasure home. Often a chase scene or a ticking clock signal the urgency and danger of the mission home. It is at the climax that the hero is severely tested once more on the threshold of home. There is one last sacrifice or another moment of death and rebirth which purifies the hero to a higher level of transformation.  Through the hero’s action the oppositions in tension at the beginning are finally resolved. The hero returns home bearing the boon, some element of treasure that has the power to transform the world as the hero has been transformed.

    Cool, huh.  The next movie you see or book you read see if you can spot some of the 17 stages. And look at your own journey. Maybe you’re refusing a call, or your being transformed by tests. Maybe there is a mentor with ‘supernatural’ powers as simple as office supplies you’ve missed seeing in your current situation.  And remember, every journey has a beginning, middle and an end. God has an expiration date on trials and we’re to consider them all joy.

    Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,a whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” James 1:2-5

    FURY Book One Eros (Fury Series 1) follows the classic Hero’s journey.

    The FURY Series by J.L. Kelly. An Intense Epic Where Two Worlds Collide.
    The FURY Series by J.L. Kelly.
    An Intense Epic Where Two Worlds Collide.
  • SPIN. off

    One third of the way through the 40 days of Lent I’ve had a SPIN off.  Did you know hell can actually be found in a 45 minute spin class?

    spin off

    Let me explain the 4 day sabbatical.  Last Tuesday I got a foretaste of hell.  The craving began back in January when I turned 50. Thanks to my study of the enneagram (see great explanation of enneagram by Steve Thomason), over the years I have had an increasing understanding of myself (type 4). Now this is important for the story- I feel (heart) first, think (head) next and act (gut) last. My feeling/thinking are so dominate that God was revealing to me that I was out of balance. My current  lack of exercise had me severely out of touch with my body- (ie I was tense and didn’t know it. There was an increasing disconnect with my physical body.) And with the recent move I was also lacking community so my pastime of jogging alone through the neighborhood needed to be adjusted to a group activity. There were some fantastic new boutique workout gyms to discover near by so last Tuesday I hit one of them. Hard.

    I was proud of my focus to pass the lobby decked out in bright workout gear and head straight for the studio-a four level amphitheater style room where I had ‘booked’ what they called ‘the ride of your life’ . The room was dimly light and peaceful with the faint track lighting and soft music. I found my bike on the top row in the back corner well out of notice.  I was out of shape, a newbie to this sport and a bit unsure how this all went down.  You get shoes for this workout. You know shoes make me happy and I clipped those little black darlings into the pedals. The class started with Iggy Azalea’s “Fancy” as the instructor called out the count of “left, right, left, right.” We were to pedal to the beat as we warmed up. By the second song the call was to get out of the saddle and stand up as we went “left, right.” Oh. Yeah. Those are my thighs…

    I was suddenly ‘connecting to my body’ again.

    Did you know there are 4 muscles in the quad? Three of mine are seriously underdeveloped. I had this moment when my legs gave out and my seat hit the saddle and i felt old and weak and ridiculously began to cry because of all the fore-mentioned just hurt my feelings. Then my brain began to shout like a drill sergeant at my feelings, “You out of shape pansy, are you really going to just cry!? At least keep pedaling. Anyone can pedal for 45 minutes. DO NOT STOP.” Thinking it all through so logically, my legs kept pedaling.

    Somewhere about minute 30, I experienced hell.  I was no longer connected to feelings or my thinking or my body. I was just pedaling in some kind of zone of never ending cyclical torment, spinning pride and fear and anger round and round and round as I experienced regret- of ever stopping my work outs and pain that my 50 yr old body wasn’t as strong as it used to be and the stupidity of shame that I could not stop pedaling or I’d hate myself.  I really told God this was a foretaste of Hell- eternity without Him- where I was sentenced to be alone with myself forever in excruciating pain. I’m so glad I know the Lord Jesus Christ.

    I proudly finished the class. Humbly wobbled my way out. Knew I was in trouble when my right leg gave out on me 3x on the way to the car. The next day it was beyond the ‘feel like you just did 5000 squats’ thigh ache.  I could not sit down on the toilet let alone get up off of it.  I could not stand but I could not sit either.  I did not sleep. The next day my urine was the color of coffee. I had Rhabdomyolysis-rhabdo=skeleton/myo=muscle/lysis=breakdown .  I had broken down the fiber of my muscles and it was spilling into the blood stream and the kidneys were in charge of filtering it-an IV was needed to correct the problem.

    The husband was beside himself. “Why didn’t you just get off?” There was a lot of scolding.  And I was enlightened not to my perseverance but my pride.  Close friends had to deal with the handicapped at a retreat that I had been looking forward to and the weekend was overshadowed with the physical complications as I was just off.

    Through the last few sleepless nights I’ve been trying to find the lesson in this.
    Be in shape before you attempt a spin class.
    Know when enough is enough (be smarter), know your body & get off the bike.
    Shame is something I need to work with God to be free of and pride cometh before a fall.
    Or is it that God allows us a foretaste of hell to understand what being disconnected with Him feels like. He was still there. Right there with me. Maybe I couldn’t feel it. My mind too overwhelmed to know it. My body so weak that pain was ruling the moment. My pride so great and my shame so humbling that only my Creator could understand the crisis I was caught in. But God was there. Doing something in that moment. Spirit to spirit that I might never understand completely.  I am more connected to my body, every ache, flinch of tension, failure to exhale, has my mind and feelings dealing with the physical part of myself again.  I’m also aware that my feelings and thoughts need to take better care with my body.  It’s the lesser of the three the way I’m made.  And a week ago I might be feeling ashamed, that I failed to keep my commitment to my 40 days of Lent but God, when we are abiding with Him sometimes there are spin offs to our best intentions and plans.  And today I’m right where He wants me. A little off but more connected.

     

     

  • HOME. Day 16 of Lent. Living in light of eternity.

    HOME. Day 16 of Lent. Living in light of eternity.

    HOME In-my-fathers-house-there-are-many-dwelling-places

    This is not my home.

    I recently moved. Again. So people who know me will nod their head at that opening statement. They’d tell you the Kellys move a lot. They rent homes while they build homes only to sell the house they’re in. After living in 3 states and 9 different cities inside 3 apartments and 10 different houses during 27 years of marriage, I can honestly say, “I’m not HOME yet.” I consider Heaven my Home and it keeps me living in light of eternity.

    Hebrews 11, the great chapter about faith and the faithful reminds us of this~ “Each one of these people of faith died not yet having in hand what was promised, but still believing. How did they do it? They saw it way off in the distance, waved their greeting, and accepted the fact that they were transients in this world. People who live this way make it plain that they are looking for their true home. If they were homesick for the old country, they could have gone back any time they wanted. But they were after a far better country than that—heaven country. You can see why God is so proud of them, and has a City waiting for them.”

    If your time here on earth were all there is to life, then you should really live it up and I mean immediately. If you don’t believe there is a God or a coming judgment or a final destination than you should forget morals, ethics or values or any consequences of your actions and indulge yourself. Be selfish, get it all now, make yourself at HOME here on earth if you thinks this is all there is.

    But God…He planted eternity in the human heart (Eccl 3:11) God designed us in His image and wired our brains with an inborn instinct for immortality. Even though we know death runs in the family, we feel like we should live forever. But one day we will die physically, it will be the end of our time on earth but not the end of us. We are DUST. Our body frail and finite, a temporary container for our spirit.

    God calls our earthly body a tent and refers to our future body as a house. “For instance, we know that when these bodies of ours are taken down like tents and folded away, they will be replaced by resurrection bodies in heaven—God-made, not hand-made—and we’ll never have to relocate our “tents” again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to move—and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what’s coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we’re tired of it! We’ve been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what’s ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we’ll never settle for less. 2 Cor 5:1-5

    Heaven isn’t a false hope. This life is not all there is. This is not my home. And we know this because God put a little of heaven, that eternity into our hearts. David, knowing he was tempted to hope in the temporary treasures of this life, asked God to remind him of this reality, to remind him that our lives are extremely short. Our lives are so tiny that David uses words like “fleeting,” “nothing,” “breath,” and “phantom” to describe man’s life. In this short life we are offered many choices where to call Home, eternity will offer only two: Heaven or Hell.

    Our relationship with Jesus Christ on earth will determine our destination in eternity. Love and trust the Lord Jesus Christ and spend eternity with him or reject His love, forgiveness and salvation and you will spend eternity with yourself, apart from God.
    C.S. Lewis said, “There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, ‘Thy will be done’ and those to whom God says, ‘All right then, have it your way.’”

    Jesus promised, “I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also.” (John 14:3)

    Our world will tempt us every day to have a temporal perspective, to live as if our current life is all there is. The only time most people think about eternity is at funerals. We need to think more about eternity not less. More about death, which is simply the door to eternity, not with fear but with anticipation knowing the deeds of this life are the destiny of the next and LIVE for Christ. We must continually renew our mind with the truth of eternity. That life is fleeting and knowing Christ by faith is just a preparation for knowing Him fully for eternity. Living in light of eternity reprioritizes how we live today. Relationships matter more than riches. Service matters more than being served.

    The Kingdom of God is upside down to the kingdom of this world. Have you accepted the fact that we are called to be foreigners, transients? Are you HOME yet?

  • NEW. Day 15 of Lent. To understand NEW we have to get the OLD.

    To understand NEW, we have to get what happened with the old.

    New day 15 of lent
    In Genesis 3 one event with 2 significant impacts occurred when Adam/Eve ate the forbidden fruit. The couple walked away from the tree not realizing what they had set in motion for mankind. They knew something was NEW, different. Because Adam tried to become his own “Source” of life – to be like God as the Serpent suggested 2 things happened-
    Adam and Eve were disconnected from the Source of life.
    Adam and Eve had connected to a NEW, different, and completely ineffective source.
    They now were connected to themselves- battery charged by the knowledge of good & evil, let’s say. They now looked at a source of knowledge other than God. They now chose the energy of self-reliance- taking the knowledge of good & evil into their own hands, which literally meant that it was now up to them to figure out what was wrong and up to them to now make it right.
    NEW Adam was now reliant on himself for power-life.
    And if his power-source got low, he couldn’t siphon power off himself to re-charge, and eventually his life-power would run out causing a physical death.
    NEW disconnected Adam & Eve immediately began to feel “EMPTY”.

    Their way of life changed; their way of feeling alive; that ALIVENESS they’d experienced connected to God was gone, their way of understanding, way of taking in and knowing truth was now formed by knowledge instead of given through the wisdom of a relationship with their Creator. They had a sudden AWARENESS of Shame-the universal ‘something is wrong with me’ that uncomfortable, painful, terrifying sense of being disconnected that feels stark and lonely-the experience associated with death. It changed their way of relating to each other (blaming) & even their way of relating to themselves (used their limited knowledge of good and decided they ought to hide-so they hid then they began to cover up with fig leaves) & awareness caused them to begin to take on a ‘personality’ over their essence. Hiding, hiding, hiding is our response to how empty we are and the beginning of our ability to LIE to ourselves and believe it which is now our NEW instinct.

    It would have been like taking a computer and disconnecting it to power and reconnecting it only to a data cable. Data alone can’t sustain power-life, but if data is all you can access, you will try to start to draw power from it.
    Man felt dead and empty. Gone was ALIVENESS and FULLNESS Christ speaks of that represents the Kingdom of God. (see day 7 of Lent blogs) This universal disconnection is called SIN. When Adam & Eve rebelled against God and ate from the tree of knowledge, they weren’t just guilty, they were disconnected. SIN in Spanish is defined as “Without”. Literally we are without our connection to our Life Source God and Creator. Sin is a condition before it becomes a behavior. We chose to disconnect from Life and reconnect to knowledge/self and the sinful things we do are a result of emptiness. We want to feel alive. This is the OLD problem.

    Understanding what changed with Adam & Eve is important when trying to understand spiritual transformation-renewing our mind to be NEW. Unfortunately a critical thing that changed with the Fall was UNDERSTANDING, man’s way of learning. It’s difficult to see when you can’t find your glasses, it’s even hard to find your glasses when you don’t have your glasses on…in the same way our ability to see accurately is unfocused by the problem we want to solve so bad as believers. We are born into the likeness of Adam, disconnected from the ALIVENESS and FULLNESS of the Source of true life and we have been connected to our SELF, our knowledge of good and evil as our source of life since our physical birth.
    The knowledge of good and evil does this, it leaves a world of Empty people that are trying to find the solution for feeling Dead. People who think they see what’s wrong and people who think they KNOW what can fix it- just START DOING this and STOP DOING that.
    SELF EFFORT won’t fix the problem. Trying as hard as you can, won’t fix the problem. Self-discipline, spiritual disciplines, and religion-a system of faith and worship, that you PRACTICE out, won’t fix the problem. It plays out like this:
    QUICK FIX- I don’t like the way I feel & I don’t like the awareness that something is wrong with me- so I REASON out the problem isn’t me but something else- it’s you, it’s this marriage, it’s my environment-anything besides me- now I feel better.
    Or I feel empty- if I just… get married, have kids, get that job, take that bible class, I will be fulfilled.
    Or I feel dead inside- let me numb that feeling with a moment or two of false aliveness and use sex, alcohol, material things, working out (vanity), gossip, food.
    Or I can do good and feel better, I can be religious, serve and give.
    Your quick fixes fail, again and again only to be repeated, again and again. And then condemnation sets in because self-effort won’t fix this OLD sin problem. But this feeling of disconnection=deadness and emptiness-is so strong and painful we’ll do anything to make it go away- blame, hide, lie to ourselves- which hurts others and our self.

    The Old problem is we disconnect from God our Creator and life, and reconnected to ourselves who are empty and dying.
    Death is in us. We are dead. We are stuck being Us.

    The Old problem is unsettling at best and overwhelming at worst.
    We are perpetual sinners. Remember sin is the condition of being separated from God and any ‘fix’ we turn to in order to fill the absence of God in our hearts is simply a symptom of sin lived out in a transgressing behavior-some look really good, others really bad. Both are motivated and driven by emptiness.
    How do we free ourselves from us? From this Old Problem?

    We have to re-connect with God.

    Jesus died to exchange the life in Him for the death in me.
    Jesus died to forgive me for who I am not just what I’ve done.
    Jesus sets me free from who I have become and not just the habits but the mindset of the knowledge-connection to what is good and what is evil of our self-effort.
    Jesus makes a connection to the Source of Life possible.

    “There was a man of the Pharisee sect, Nicodemus, a prominent leader among the Jews. Late one night he visited Jesus and said, “Rabbi, we all know you’re a teacher straight from God. No one could do all the God-pointing, God-revealing acts you do if God weren’t in on it.”  Jesus said, “You’re absolutely right. Take it from me: Unless a person is born from above, it’s not possible to see what I’m pointing to—to God’s kingdom.”
    “How can anyone,” said Nicodemus, “be born who has already been born and grown up? You can’t re-enter your mother’s womb and be born again. What are you saying with this ‘born-from-above’ talk?”
    Jesus said, “You’re not listening. Let me say it again. Unless a person submits to this original creation—the ‘wind-hovering-over-the-water’ creation, the invisible moving the visible, a baptism into a new life—it’s not possible to enter God’s kingdom. When you look at a baby, it’s just that: a body you can look at and touch. But the person who takes shape within is formed by something you can’t see and touch—the Spirit—and becomes a living spirit.
    “So don’t be so surprised when I tell you that you have to be ‘born from above’—out of this world, so to speak. You know well enough how the wind blows this way and that. You hear it rustling through the trees, but you have no idea where it comes from or where it’s headed next. That’s the way it is with everyone ‘born from above’ by the wind of God, the Spirit of God.
    …This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person’s failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him. (John 3 MSG)

    We can be born again. The NEW birth. Born again we are born from the breath of our Father God and not the womb of our mother. Born again we are reconnected, not just restored to the family, but reconnected to the Source of Life and made spiritual men and women again. We are alive. Given New Life.

    New Life lives differently, sees differently, thinks differently.
    New life shifts from doing (self-effort) to being (God abiding).
    New life changes its focus off behavior problems-the START DOING this and STOP DOING that cycle, and onto the power source of transforming behavior- Christ.
    New life is lived by faith, which comes from hearing the word of God.
    New Life is a restoration of the intended life God had for man connected to Him.

    Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 2 Cor 5:17

    “Put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.”                Ephesians 4:22-24

  • DREAM. Day 14 of LENT. I dreamed a dream.

    DREAM. Day 14 of LENT. I dreamed a dream.

     

    DREAM. My first thought about this word was a song- I Dreamed a Dream from Les Miserables but not the way Anne Hathaway sang it. I thought of that infamous episode of Britains Got Talent, did you see it? If you have time watch below; if not I’ll tell you about it. This “nearly 48” year old woman, Susan Boyle steps out like a wiry-haired church lady in a vanilla colored frock and is presented to Simon and staff.  Susan said she’d always dreamed of being a professional singer but no one had given her a chance.  No one in the audience was giving her a chance either until she began to sing.  In moments she had the nay-sayers on their feet with a standing ovation even as she still singed.  And truthfully, the video account is so shocking and awe inspiring to me it is the best account of what dreams are all about when they suddenly come true. Unbelieveable!

    We all dream in the ordinary way. Unless you pulled an all-nighter, you had one last night. Do you remember the Technicolor series of images, ideas, sensations and emotions which told that involuntary story while you slept? Dreams occur when one first enters into what is called Rapid Eye Movement (REM), the deepest sleep time. The average person sleeping for eight hours a night can dream up to one to two hours of that time.  Once you get the brain down to the minimum possible activity . . . your mind is free. In the dream state the mind is more impressionable to the day’s events and often plays back composites of what was said, thought or done. It replays events and puts together bits and pieces that can make sense or not make any sense. Fragmentary ideas or loosely connected circumstances and thoughts make up dreams and it can be totally subjective sorting out its meaning with varied interpretations.

    Biblically speaking we know God used dreams. God planted the DREAM of leadership that was longed for by Joseph and jealously ridiculed by his brothers as an unrealistic and foolish hope-“us, bow down to you, not.” Solomon was given the promise of wisdom in a dream and Gideon was encouraged to victory through the interpretation of a dream. Jacob dreamed of the stairway to heaven and Joseph was given the blessing to marry Mary and step-father Jesus and the warning to escape Herod and flee to Egypt all while asleep and dreaming.  The visions and dreams recorded in the Bible were given to specific people for a specific purpose- God’s purpose.

    Just because one receives a dream or vision does not mean it is from God. Satan can give dreams and visions. He did so with Jesus “Then the devil, taking Him up on a high mountain, showed Him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment of time” (Luke 4:5). This was something seen-a vision by his supernatural power to tempt Jesus to sin but Jesus resisted.  We have to test the spirits to discern their intent-is it for good or evil? Solomon reminds us, “For in the multitude of dreams and many words there is also vanity. But fear God.” Eccl 5:7

    Dreams are different than visions.
    A dream is a story communicated in picture that takes place when you are asleep.
    A vision is when you are awake and see reality part and are either watching or end up participating in it as John did in the book of Revelation or Isaiah did in the throne room of the most high God. God formerly used a variety of means to communicate with man, which would include dreams or visions. Scripture more often tells us the word came to the prophets- in other words they had an encounter with the word, the Son of God. But in our day, His revelation is not normally through these means but through the Lord Jesus Christ whose revelation is final and superior and revealed in the Word the Bible.

    Yet Luke records, “‘In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.” Acts 2:17

    Putting the two definitions of DREAM together- what if you had to exist in a culture of oppression and fear.  What if you always dreamed of a life where you were free and loved and fulfilled and alive.  And what would you do if suddenly Jesus began to appear in your dreams? There His presence brought peace and love, ALIVENESS and FULLNESS like nothing you had ever experienced.  With Jesus you felt absolutely safe for the very first time, valued and perfectly loved in the dream. What if He came to you with the same single message? And what if that same dream continued for over thirty days? Thirty weeks? Thirty years? What if on the thirty-first time he told you that tomorrow you would meet His friend and you were to ask His friend to tell you all about Him? And what if it happened? The friend of Jesus was there, at that place you went to every day, they were dressed just like they were in the dream and when you approached them and ask if they were Jesus’ friend, they said, “yes,” and they told you all about their friend and savior from the Bible.

    What if I told you this story is true?

    It is about a Muslim woman. And she wasn’t the only Muslim experiencing this dream. A staggering number of Muslims are being introduced to Jesus through a vision or dream so powerful that they eventually turned from their lifelong religion of Islam and embrace Christ as their Savior.  These conversions are despite living in a culture where converting to Christianity can result in execution. Jesus is reaching out to the Muslims and they are responding. Did you know that Iran has the fastest growing church in the world?

    Tom Doyle has spent the last 11 years working as a missionary in the Middle East. He was initially skeptical about reports that God was speaking to Muslims in supernatural ways. But his mindset changed when his friend told him: “God showed me that my theology does not determine His action.” Doyle says these dreams are opening the door for Muslims to hear the testimony about Jesus from Christians in countries where spreading the Gospel is forbidden. While the West associates Islam with terrorism, Doyle believes the majority of Muslims are peace-loving. “I believe Islamic terrorism is Satan’s attempt to keep the Gospel message away from Muslims,” he writes. Nothing can stop the Gospel from spreading.  “More Muslims are coming to faith in Jesus today than ever before. In fact, we believe more Muslims have become followers of Jesus in the last ten years than in the last 14 centuries of Islam.”

    Unbelievable! I had no idea this was happening, did you? We should pray for the peace of Jerusalem and for the bold witness to, and courageous conversion of Muslims. You can read more about it in Tom Doyle’s book:

    DREAMS AND VISIONS: Is Jesus Awakening the Muslim World?

    And watch for the dreams to convert one of my characters in the FURY series Book Three Effect this fall. DREAM ON!

  • GO. Day 13 of Lent. Wisdom from Dr. Seuss.

    GO. Day 12 of Lent. Wisdom from Dr. Seuss.

    oh the places you'll go

    Remember what Dr. Seuss taught us all in Oh, The Places You’ll Go!

    The story begins with the decision of the unnamed protagonist to leave town and take a journey. The protagonist travels through several geometrical and polychromatic landscapes and places, eventually encountering  “The Waiting Place”.

    ..for people just waiting. Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or a No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite  or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.  Everyone is just waiting.

    This last book by Dr. Seuss was written in 1990. And I wonder if today the phraseology wouldn’t have been, “The busy place” for people just busy. Busy on cellphones or tablets or laptops, we’re all busy tweeting or skyping or instagraming, watching our Netflix and following blogs, drinking our StarBucks and GPSing in cars, busy going here and taking us there, glorifying busy, busy everywhere.

    Busy is never an excuse for procrastinating and not “going” where God calls us. Good things are often the enemy of God’s best and waiting always serves a purpose in our journey.  It produces anticipation and provides time for planning.  No one naturally wants to wait so the task requires sacrificing our selfish desires and placing our trust in God’s timing. Waiting can be a protection and waiting patiently indicates maturity.

    The lessons I always come away with in this story are:

    You have to start to finish – “You’re off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting, So… get on your way!”

    God provides what you need– “You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…”

    Stay balanced to succeed “So be sure when you step, Step with care and great tact. And remember that life’s A Great Balancing Act.

    Persevere through fear -“All Alone!  Whether you like it or not,  Alone will be something  you’ll be quite a lot. And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance  you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.”

    Gratitude lifts the spirit-“When you’re in a Slump, you’re not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.”

    Waiting is the mean time of faith-“You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
    headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
    The Waiting Place…”

     

    Get your copy of Dr. Seuss’ Oh, The Places You’ll Go!

  • WORSHIP. Day 12 of Lent. How to Hallelujah.

    WORSHIP. Day 12 of Lent. How to Hallelujah.

    john423 spirt and truth

     

    I’ve often wondered what it must sound like in heaven on Sunday mornings when corporate worship is lifted up, rippling through time zones for hours.  Today 48 of the United States had precipitation of some kind-we were iced over in North Texas and church was cancelled. And I wondered, what must it sound like this morning as I sang a little Francis of Assisi. “All creatures of our God and King, Lift up your voice and with us sing, Alleluia! Alleluia! Thou burning sun with watermelon, Thou silver moon with watermelon! O praise Him! O praise Him! Alleluia! Alleluia! Alleluia!” Yes. I did sing the infamous “Watermelon” -a word Nicole Peters taught me you can sing that substitutes for any song  lyric and even looks like you know the words while you keep tempo. Great if you ever have to lip sync. Alone I can sing it out, adding in the watermelons wherever necessary to keep me from getting hung up on the perfection.  And writing this, I think Hallelujah would also be a great filler for unknown words.

    I remember being at a service once at Woodmen Valley Chapel in Colorado Springs.  I don’t remember the song but the worship and the worshipers around me I will never forget. There was harmony echoing back to the praise team. A rippling of improvisation to the praise chorus. People just softly speaking out truth,
    “God you are good.”
    “Forgiving.”
    “My provider.”
    “Love.”
    People claiming, “Yes Lord, you alone are worthy” as worship was sung. Hands were lifted or held over hearts as people swayed. Some might think it sounds distracting, showy and self-centered instead of respectful worship.  I tell you it was spirit and truth and a holy experience.  Blind worship.

    Corporately I learned I worship best when I also come blind.  I close my eyes and enter into the worship with spirit and truth. It’s just God, lifted up. Not words, not even music, they are just tools to communicate what is often so hard to express, to arrange God’s attributes and sing what we know of Him or sing our petitions, what we agree with Him up and out. It’s never about how we look or sound or sing- that’s ego and pride. And if that is what we are worrying about, should we sing?  And if we come heavy burdened or heavy-hearted, guilt-ridden or grudge holding, should we not sing and remind our hearts of a great overcoming God? And if we cry, is that the overflow of pure worship? And if all stop judging if this is our comfortable style and decide to participate whether the beat is free-flowing contemporary or incense burning Latin, whether worshipers stand in rank or clap or shout or dance, hold hands high or keep them folded tight, close eyes or track each word in perfect respectful pitch as breath forms words-in spirit and in truth– song words that turn to scent, incense that lifts up, up, up and fills the hallowed heavens with a single word. It is all the great gathered hallelujah of worship.

    Hallelujah: a thankful cry to express praise or thanks to God

    If you were to spell hallelujah in Hebrew, you see four Hebrew letters that escort you into the realm of worship and praise.  Hallelujah is really two words. Hal-lu means praise, and yah is a shortened form for the most common name for God in the Old Testament that we pronounce as Yahweh or Jehovah.

    The first two letters are:
    yod

     

    hebrew letter hey

     

    Hebrew is written from right to left. So in Hebrew, the letters for yah appear in reverse order and look like this:

    yah Hebrew God

    Yah is spelled with a yod and a heh from right to left and we have Yah which is God.
    Hal-lu the Hebrew word for praise looks like this:

    Hebrew word praise

    Put together the Hebrew word for praise and the short form for the most common name for God in the Old Testament, and we have hallelujah.

    Hebrew word halleluyah

     

    Enjoy this 5 minute improvisation by CLOVERTON of one of my favorite songs: Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah

  • PROMISE. Day 11 of Lent. Yes and Amen!

    PROMISE. Day 11 of Lent. Yes and Amen!

    PROMISES yes and amen

    For all of God’s promises have been fulfilled in Christ
    with a resounding “Yes!”
    And through Christ, our “Amen” (which means “Yes”);
    ascends to God for his glory.
    2 Corinthians 1:20

    What IT IS WRITTEN can you claim today as your promise?

    ENCOURAGEMENT
    God didn’t set us up for an angry rejection but for salvation by our Master, Jesus Christ. He died for us, a death that triggered life. Whether we’re awake with the living or asleep with the dead, we’re alive with him! So speak encouraging words to one another. Build up hope so you’ll all be together in this, no one left out, no one left behind. I know you’re already doing this; just keep on doing it.
    1 Thessalonians 5:11 (MSG)

    FEAR
    Fear not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen you; yes, I will help you; yes, I will uphold you my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10

    COMFORT
    Grace be to you and peace from God our Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ. Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.- 2 Corinthians 1:2-4

    CHILDREN
    Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.- Proverbs 22:6
    I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.- 1 samuel 1:27

    STRENGTH
    That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man; That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love, May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fullness of God.- Ephesians 3:16-19

    PROVISIONS
    But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.- Philippians 4:19

    FORGIVENESS
    If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. – 1 John 1:9

    DIRECTION
    Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.- Jeremiah 33:3

    HEALING
    Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise. – Jeremiah 17:14

    For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the LORD…- Jeremiah 30:17

    LONELINESS
    God sets the solitary in families…- Psalms 68:6

    SALVATION
    That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. – Romans 10:9-10

    ASSURANCE
    For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
    – Romans 8:38-39

    TRANSFORMATION
    A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.- Ezekiel 36:26-27

    OBEDIENCE
    I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me.
    – Philippians 4:13

    PERSEVERANCE
    He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increases strength.- Isaiah 40:29

     

    yesandamen

  • WITNESS. Day 10 of Lent. Go and Tell.

    WITNESS. Day 10 of Lent. Go & Tell.

    j.l. kelly

    I went to an AA meeting once. I’m not an alcoholic, but as I sat there in that smoky room full of the transparently pure, I wanted to be as brave as the people in that group. I coveted that place. A place where I could go and be among people who got my problem and stand up when I needed to and share my current and ongoing struggle.  I want to listen to the witness of the over-comers. Hear the mysterious soul balm of encouragement as simple truths are told again, like old stories we’ve heard but perhaps today, have forgotten, and we remember. “Oh, yeah,” nodding our head, that is so true. I wanted to watch the courage of the one in the back, get up and take that long walk to the front, and grab the lectern with a white knuckle grip and recount the five days he’s gone without giving in and how every minute he wanted to and he’s still not sure how he didn’t. But God…  and we swallow and we tear up and inside something shifts and we find courage ourselves.  I want to lift my hand up in agreement and let that woman who is telling her story know I’ve been there too.  Yes. I’ve been there too.  And it’s going to be okay. We’re all working the program. Applying the Big Book. Making amends and watching out for resentments and curbing our expectations.  And I want to visit with that old man, he only said a few words but they were so wise. And I can catch him at the coffee pot, he likes it black and hot. Me, I drowned it in cream so I don’t burn my tongue. And as I stir I say, “Thanks for sharing.” And he answers, “Keep coming back.” AA was a witness of the love and power of God and His people. And each person’s opening introduction became a witness to me.

    As the church we are a Witness to the evidence that Christ saves and we are also called to testify to the evidence we believe. The fruits of the Spirit are a witness of the evidence.  Our words, service and giving testify to what we believe.

    It’s not an option, we are commanded to witness. “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” And we are promised we don’t go alone. Christ is with us. To the very end. We forget that sometimes. We think we are going it alone. But His presence is our peace and power.

    Last week I got that call to “go”.  It wasn’t to a geographical place but it was a call to witness. God had prepared my heart with a desire to participate in Lent.  Then God put in my path something that He knew would make me stop and see how he wanted me to participate.  I’m a visual learner, so when he wants me to have eyes to see, he often gives me something He knows will catch my attention.  Since I love words, the title captivated me. A WITNESS THROUGH THESE 40 WORDS.  On Ash Wednesday I began with the chosen word DUST.

    The first few days were hard. It felt more like an assignment in obedience. And my secular job is in the height of busy season, so I was getting up earlier to make it happen.  I was keeping the blog on the down low too. Until I saw a scene from an AA meeting on a TV show.  Someone got up and said their name and those words, “I’m an alcoholic”.   And Spirit said, “you need to say it.” And I knew what He was talking about.

    As a writer I battle the ebb and flow of insecurity in my calling.  As a teacher sometimes I can think what I have to share is just an opinion, my opinion and who wants another one of those.  Doubt was holding back what God wanted to go out as a witness. So it was time to say it-“I am Jessica and I am a writer.”

    I have witnessed to this before, to my closest friends in crucial moments. It’s usually said softly, with a nervous energy keeping my eyes jumping and my body squirming and then a rush of words runs after the statement because please just get me out of the awkwardness of this.  See, I don’t really believe it. Yet. But at times I do. And God keeps me right here, totally reliant on Him just like an alcoholic. And then He sends His people to share a witness. Of what my words meant to them.  Like He did yesterday. And I know that my obedience mattered. That my witness had a purpose. Just as yours does. To someone else.

    We are to go. Witness. Of the evidence that Christ saves and witness to the evidence we believe.